Nothing is Something Worth Doing

I require that you listen to the music I post here. It's extrasensory, it's supposed to put you in my same mental state as I write! Indulge.

Feel - Bombay Dub Orchestra (Thievery Corporation Remix)

So I've taken the past couple of days to just relax and live around the school contentedly in my new, more balanced state of mind. I've stopped taking the Valerian root, which I think was causing the extraordinary dreams. Too much dreaming means too much REM sleep, which can lead to depressive states (-- thanks to a Joe Eschweiler for reminding me of this.) So my sleep is more calm and refreshing but it's still more dreaming than when life is normal at home. I've been picking up my yoga practice to once or twice a day and I find myself resorting to prostration pushups instead of running to the bakery to drown my sorrows with food, which was definitely the story of last week. I have hardly enough room but it just forces me to be more creative. I'm excited for the day that I to reach the level where I can get off the mat and develop my own unique expressive style.

As I study the philosophy and variations of yoga, I think I'm starting to find a niche. It's important to give every style a try, and use them as cross-training, but I like really the flow of vinyasa. I learned a bit about Tantra traditions today, and I'm going to a spiritual bookstore tomorrow to see what I can find. I have a couple of teachers who I want to study under some day when I'm ready. Shiva Rea, one of my favorites, spreads this concept of yoga energy activism. Using yoga to nourish the connectivity in yourself, mind and body, and extending that healthy relationship to nourish the connectivity between individual and environment. There is so much activism in the yoga community, it's unbelievable. I've always wanted to make an impact and I really think my purpose is in this path.