I'm finally admitting it to myself that I haven't been giving my 100% here. Part of this, I'm sure, is due to the fact that my head and heart are still at home. You know what though, I don't regret a single minute of it. A good friend, Wendy Swanberg, told me that sometimes it takes a bit of crashing and burning in order to gain wisdom. Mine is that there isn't anything anybody at home can do to fill this hole in my heart right now. I've gotta be here right now and give every moment my undivided attention.
If there's something I've learned through my yoga practice it's the importance of experiencing the present moment. It's an art, and I shouldn't get mad at myself for not being perfect at it. If I'm spending most of my energy focusing on the future or the past, can I even say that I experienced any of this? When I dubbed this blog, "Being Here Now" I did it for a reason. It is a mantra I've known for awhile but always seem to forget, and I try to live by it even though I'm not exactly good at it. Living in the Now is difficult and it requires one hundred percent of your energy in every living, breathing moment. I have such a loud mind that wanders and lets my emotions get the best of me.
I deactivated my Facebook and I figured those of you who love me and want to communicate with me will do so via more authentic, intimate medium. I'm more than happy to write emails and respond to posts on here. They make me happy because it shows you still care about me even though I'm gone! So now I think it's time to break out some good old Eckhart Tolle.
If there's something I've learned through my yoga practice it's the importance of experiencing the present moment. It's an art, and I shouldn't get mad at myself for not being perfect at it. If I'm spending most of my energy focusing on the future or the past, can I even say that I experienced any of this? When I dubbed this blog, "Being Here Now" I did it for a reason. It is a mantra I've known for awhile but always seem to forget, and I try to live by it even though I'm not exactly good at it. Living in the Now is difficult and it requires one hundred percent of your energy in every living, breathing moment. I have such a loud mind that wanders and lets my emotions get the best of me.
I deactivated my Facebook and I figured those of you who love me and want to communicate with me will do so via more authentic, intimate medium. I'm more than happy to write emails and respond to posts on here. They make me happy because it shows you still care about me even though I'm gone! So now I think it's time to break out some good old Eckhart Tolle.
"Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable, you have three options: Remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally."
-Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now
Hey! I guess I didn't get to you before you deactivated your facebook. May have been a good thing because it forced me to google your blog and read a good portion of it. Great writing, keep it up! Anyway my email is joeesch@umich.edu so shoot me and email if ever you want to chat. Namaste.
ReplyDeleteNice I'm glad you found it and thanks for reading. I think I'll write a book some day but I need to practice writing more and more. Without Facebook, I'm actually finding it addicting! I'm going to invest in a journal for more private thoughts. I'll probably be emailing you from time to time. Mine is mstandal@wisc.edu if you ever feel the need.
Deleteom shanti :)